I want you to think about a situation that you desire clarity around. An answer you seek. Something personal. Because yes, all of us would like to know when aliens are going to show up!
Then bust out a sheet of paper, or preferably your well-worn journal. On the top of the sheet, ask your question you want answered. Then underneath it put the subtitle “The Story of Fear”. And underneath that heading, write the answer as you are afraid it might be. Write out that unsavory or downright terrifying reality as if it was real. Don’t make it far-fetched and elaborate, keep it tight to your actual fears; make it plausible.
Next write the subtitle “The Story of Hope”. Underneath that heading write out the story as you hope it turns out, or wish it already is. Write it as if it has already happened, as if it was real, and you were simply recounting the story in a journal entry far in the future.
Beneath those stories, write the following:
What is true?
What is true?
What is true?
Say those words out loud, taking a long slow breath after each refrain. Visualize moving your energy down from your head, to the center of your chest. Deep breaths. Stay in your heart. Then without diverting focus back to your mind, write out what is true. Let it pour effortlessly and unaudited from your heart center, your own source of truth.
The reason why this works, is that somewhere deep down you know what is true. If you are a materialist, call it the wisdom of the subconscious mind which calculates far more than the conscious mind ever could. If you are a spiritualist, recognize that you are connected to the collective consciousness of the world, the morphic resonance field of all beings; so if anyone knows what is true, so do you.
I started this practice several years ago when I was in the most challenging phase of the polyamory journey with Whitney. I started to recognize that any difficult situation (typically involving her feelings for whomever she was dating) was always worse than I hoped, but not as bad as I feared. And if I asked myself the question “what is true?” three times in a row, I would know the answer. It was a game changer for me, and still is.
So while I don’t have any more polyamory woes I’ll let you in on a current situation that I need clarity on, so you can get a feel for how this works. I’m going to do this FOR REAL. I don’t know the answer and I don’t know how it is going to turn out… Here goes:
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What recently caused the non-specific inflammation that I experienced?
The Story Of Fear
You have done irreparable damage to your gut biome through your habitual use of antibiotics as a teen. The cadre of vaccines prior to your trip to Africa created irreversible autoimmune triggers. You are also perpetually fighting the Epstein Barr virus you were diagnosed with in high school.
The Story of Hope
What you are experiencing is something that everyone experiences from time to time. Certain lifestyle and food choices influence it, but your body is strong, healthy, and operating at optimal capacity.
What Is True?
What Is True?
What Is True?
I AM strong. I AM healthy. And more so I have the capacity to heal anything, when I emotionally anchor to the belief that I am already healed. What you are experiencing is real, and it is more severe than many people have to face. But it is the story of fear itself that is the culprit. This story of fear stems from the Myth of Separation*. The belief that I am separate from nature, and nature is out to kill me. The self-rejection based on conditions for my worthiness of love. The belief that I am separate from the Source energy that infuses all life, and is capable of miracles. When you are ready to leave behind your story of fear, and the myth of separation, your perceived maladies will cease.
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Well, there you have it. I guess it’s time to take a little more responsibility mentally, emotionally, and spiritually for my physical woes :)
I hope you find this exercise useful to you. If you do, please share this email with a friend.
I love you all! Oh, and lion tracker and legendary storyteller Boyd Varty is back on the podcast this week to talk about his 30 day isolation in the African bush. And a bunch of other cool shit, like when he found himself close enough to fellate a rhino horn :)
–Aubrey
